Midnight Musings

Hey. Sorry it's been so long since I've said anything. It's been really challenging trying to balance everything. I can't sleep because my mind is racing. I feel inspired all over again, I guess. It feels like it's been a long time since I've felt this motivated. You could say I've had a wake up call. I've realized that my passion for music has been muted. I barely sing anymore or play piano like I used to. I barely compose. Sometimes it feels like I've run out of passion or creativity. I mean, I still listen to music. It's still a part of me, but it feels like I'm losing it. I think there are many factors to why this has happened. There's a lot going on. I think I've been depressed more than usual because of those things. I could use your prayers.

How have you been? I'd love to hear from you. How are you handling this pandemic? What's helped you cope? 

Lately, I've been playing and singing again, which is nice. Maybe it's God telling me that I need to pursue music again. I've been so distracted by so many things. I did speak with my producer this evening. It was encouraging and helpful to talk to him. He gave me some great insights and support. He recommended a book on the new music industry and how to navigate through it. I'm learning so much. I feel inspired to work hard for my passions. I've been neglecting my music. I know, I just made an EP, but I haven't really been promoting it like I should. I've been so quiet on my social media. I apologize for that. I'm gonna do my best to be more interactive on the platforms that I'm on. 

I'm grateful for your support through all this. Thank you for reading this post. 

I think I might have a literary agent. I'm pretty excited about that. I've been trying to get The Mutates: The Creation published for so long. I made some drastic cuts to the story. Maybe I can share what I've done through my website. Would you be interested in taking a look at my book? I'll get your input on that and see what you say.

I'm gonna really work hard to be consistent. I want to share my life with you all. It's just hard when life is painful. I had bronchitis not too long ago. That stunk. Hopefully you're staying healthy and safe. 

I'm thinking about doing a live concert every week. Maybe on Saturdays? I'm still thinking it through. We'll see.

I'm excited to see how God will bless my efforts. I really want to get better at being more consistent and less lazy. I think that's my problem. With life being so painful lately, all I want to do is seek out comfort. I can't afford to be comfortable. I have to push myself a little. It's just so hard trying to balance my mental and physical health challenges. Ugh, Lyme is such a killjoy. But I won't give up. I want to share my skills with you. I want to keep growing. 

What are some ways that you see God growing you? 

If you leave me a comment, I'll be sure to pray for you. Stay strong. Don't let your passions die. Be happy. It's gonna be alright. 

Much love.

<3

2 comments

  • Thyra
    Thyra Massachusetts
    Thank you for being so honest about all you're going through! One way I see myself growing is I've read very widely this past year, starting to read books I would not have picked up in years past. Everything from detailed accounts of nature travel to satires of religion. It's been at times beautiful or comforting or exhilarating, and at other times shocking and uncomfortable. But overall I feel stronger and am definitely more willing to listen, be curious, and ask questions instead of jump to a judgment immediately. I've been listening to your music as I read your post and write my response, and it's been lovely to hear!

    Thank you for being so honest about all you're going through! One way I see myself growing is I've read very widely this past year, starting to read books I would not have picked up in years past. Everything from detailed accounts of nature travel to satires of religion. It's been at times beautiful or comforting or exhilarating, and at other times shocking and uncomfortable. But overall I feel stronger and am definitely more willing to listen, be curious, and ask questions instead of jump to a judgment immediately.

    I've been listening to your music as I read your post and write my response, and it's been lovely to hear!

  • Peyton Leonard
    Peyton Leonard
    Thank you for commenting, Thyra! I appreciate you.

    Thank you for commenting, Thyra! I appreciate you.

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